// Arising Faith

Poll Test

2007-01-15T21:52:00.000-08:00

STEPS!

2007-01-06T14:02:00.000-08:00

Haha nothing to do so was just surfing youtube! Came across one of those uber old bands that I liked when I was in sec school? Man, the songs are rather boy/girl bandish but they're still nice. Love their dance moves! Gonna post one of my fav vids hahaha. Oh and, Lisa is hot!

BORED

2006-12-27T23:11:00.000-08:00

Man, I AM SO BORED which explains why I'm posting hahaha. Being sick sucks. It's just like being grounded cept that you're not grounded damn. Ever since I stopped really gaming a couple of weeks back, I have nothing to do at home anymore argh. Which explains why I go out almost everyday. Gah, stupid fever/sore eyes. Well guess this is a sign for me to start sleeping early! Need to get rid of my panda eyes, anyone have any suggestions what is the most effective way to do that? :O

Took some pics of my eyes before this post. They are still rather red, imagine that being 2-3x worse when i woke up this morning. Could only open my eyes like 40% wide.

Anyway going to sleep now, goodnight folks!

Merry Christmas!

2006-12-25T04:55:00.000-08:00

Hohoho! Merry Christmas to all!! Hope everyone's wishes come true and get alllllllll the presents that they are hoping for! :D Take care and I'll catch you around!

Hello!

2006-11-18T12:01:00.000-08:00

The time has come for that once in a long while post.. Just catching up a lil while waiting for zin to finish vacuuming his hse so we can 1v1 scout lol. Been really tired the last week and fell prey to the flu bug.. lack of sleep probably reduced my body's defences greatly. So well yeah had to skip school on wed .. other than that been really busy at school although this is supposed to be a real slack sem. Even when i'm at home I just can't seem to concentrate on anything, yes even gaming. Starting to lose interest in WoW because i'm too lazy to level my alt.

Lots of stuff happening in the bowling club and I really want to do something. However, I'm having doubts about taking up responsibility cause i'm afraid I won't be able to handle. I'd rather just help out from the dark seriously. Still stuck in that dilemma.. Everyone is bowling the AIA Singapore National Bowling Championships today except me, really sucks having no money man. Never imagined myself having it so bad as now, argh. Oh well, hopefully the bad times will pass soon. Starting to think too much again at school, shouldn't be so competitive but somehow I just can't stand someone who is always so much worse than me suddenly springing up and becoming so hardworking.. Man I just can't lose out. Hopefully will settle everything inside soon!

Wee!

2006-09-01T03:38:00.000-07:00

Wooo! Exams are over! Or at least they were like a week ago! Haha! This marks the end of what can be said to be the toughest semester in my poly life, AND I SURVIVED! Which means next semester is gonna be easy peasy :D. Hopefully my results are good this semester! So now its holidays, lots of outings coming up! Have to work though, need to save money for the class trip to Bintan during the last week of our holidays! Haha. So gonna hit the sack now, will leave you guys with a jrock vid! (Sorry if you don't like jrock :s)

Cheers!

Short Update

2006-08-23T00:47:00.000-07:00

Well, just a short update. 2 Papers are over and one more to go! My last paper is on Thursday, wee! Really can't wait for this exam period to be over, then I can relax finally. Haven't gone out in ages, and mahjong sessions too! To everyone out there having exams or assignments right now, hang in there folks! You guys can and will survive! So anyway, my friend pasted me an awesome version of Pachelbel's Canon (Canon in D), the rock version so I thought I'd post it for you guys to hear hahah. Really nice variation of the original song, to me at least lol. So anyway, y'all take care and I'll see you soon!

I WILL SURVIVE!

2006-08-19T01:20:00.000-07:00

Well its 1.15 AM in the morning and I am still here trying to study for my test later at 9am. Got 2 more lectures to go but will probably just finish 1 then head to bed for the night. Can't seem to focus though, which is the reason I'm typing this, gah. So anyway this post is not for anyone to read, just for me to give myself inspiration! So, go ben!

Gloria Gaynor - I will Survive

First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me

Ok now I know this song has no relation whatsoever to exams, but hell, the title suits and thats good enough! COMEON BEN. I WILL SURVIVE!!!!

FYP Over!

2006-08-15T03:47:00.000-07:00

Weird it seems that I always can't get the inspiration to post until the wee hours of the morning before I sleep. Hmm, oh well guess it can't be helped. Anyway, I have finally completed my FYP!! The presentation was last Friday and now I'm FREEEE!!! Glad to say that my group did well! Awesome stuff guys! Thanks for being such great groupmates, we all did our respective parts and it turned out brilliantly! Kudos to Andy and Rane as well as all our fellow classmates and teachers! Cheers to the IES team too! Couldn't have completed the site without the help of you guys! So now that my FYP is over, all that's left is the final exams! Hopefully it won't be that much of a problem, I only have 3 papers and there are breaks to study in between! Now that I have more or less completed this sem, next sem is gonna be a breeze because I don't think that any other sem will be as tough as this! Anyway, now I have lots of time for other stuff and I'll be quite free during the holidays! Feel free to ask me out heh! Looking forward to going out and having fun again! So anyway gonna post up some pics from my FYP process haha. Not to mention that day was also Arron's birthday! Happy birthday pal! Great classmate you have been, hope everything goes according to your wishes and have a great birthday!

Haha a whole group of my classmates at my place 2 days before final presentation, rushing projects, never seen so many laptops in my room before! :O

So after all that stress, finally the day for presentation has arrived! Pre-presentation stress >_<

Couple of my classmates, Ying Hui, Josh and Ester

Me, Josh, Rio

My group!

Another picture of me and my group, just before presentation!

All looking happy after presentation!

Goin out to celebrate end of presentation and Arron's birthday!

Guys with the birthday boy!

Class picture!

Went to boat quay to chill out after dinner! We managed to catch fireworks too by luck!

Fooling around haha!

So anyway, thats about it for the pictures, sorry for the lousy quality I think blogger resized it automatically and its now kinda spoilt lol! But, you get the idea :P The bottom pics where we celebrated Arron's birthday, these are my classmates from year 1, too bad some of us have split up already to different classes but they'll always be good buddies of mine! Love all my classmates old and new :). Ok I need to head to bed already, get the feeling I'm gonna be late to meet Ben Tan tomorrow to study. First paper on Sat, Followed by Monday and Thursday! Wish me luck! Till then, take care everyone and enjoy life!

Random shit

2006-07-31T04:14:00.000-07:00

Woo its 4.05AM in the morning now I'm supposed to get to bed but can't seem to. Just completed the layout for my FYP website, quite pleased with myself after all it looks much better than the old one (Thanks Kang for your help! and Andrea for your comments!). Well I know that there are people who are more stressed out over projects than me (you know who you are :P) so I shan't complain here hahahahaha!

On to other stuff, my sis just graduated! Congrats to you! You have now officially joined the unemployment population :). Time passes so fast, I'm already in my last year in poly and my sis has graduated, time to take a walk back in memory lane!

Back when I was still CSing crazily, 2003!

Still Csing, 2005, Gosh I have been playing that stupid game for so long.

Somewhere back in last year with my classmates TT05!

Couple of weeks ago at my sis's graduation! :O

Haha, another 2 weeks and i'll be free! No more FYP for me! Just 3 exams, which I have tons of time to study for wheeee! Considering playing CS again after that hmm.

Update!

2006-07-29T20:00:00.000-07:00

Haha looks like yes its time to clear the cobwebs that have been collecting dust here. I am actually touched that people still come and look at my blog and leave a couple of tags, thanks to you guys (you know who you are!). Well if it wasn't for you guys I wouldn't really be updating. Was reading Gab's blog which reminded me I have one here too haha.

Life has been really hectic these past few months, I thought that things would be much better after attachment but I was wrong! FYP is really killing my braincells, have never stayed in school so long before, averaging like 3 nights a week up till 11pm. Well the end of the semester is coming! Just another 2 more weeks to pull through. Nothing much really, I think I have been very irritable, or over sensitive. Think I'm losing more and more friends by the day heh. Oh well, thats who I am, learn to live with it! Or just leave me alone hehe.

Cheerios to everyone and have a good weekend! Don't know when my next post will be but you guys take care!

Life's Irony

2006-03-12T20:01:00.000-08:00

Ok, so exams have come and gone. Can't tell you how much a relief that is. Having 4 days of exams non stop is no joke. And immediately the following week attachment starts. So now i'm in the midst of attachment, can't really complain yet it's not really all that great haha. Currently attached to OCBC, some IT department. Spent the first week more or less just doing nothing and reading my book. Except for the occasional tasks that they assigned which takes at most an hour to complete. But I should say that I've learnt alot already from it as I've had to play with SQL which I absolutely had no idea about.

Anyway, during the ONLY weekend break that we have before attachment, I went to JB with my classmates. An absolutely whacky bunch but also a bunch of brilliantly fun dudes to be around with. We stayed at a golf resort called Austin Hills Golf Resort and the room was absolutely HUGE. 2 King size beds and a huge empty space + bath tub/shower and its just 50SGD for 2 nights stay. Really enjoyed myself, and a great relaxation trip save for the sunburns when we came back haha!

Oh well, 6 more weeks of attachment to go and hope time passes fast! Funny huh, the irony of life. During other holidays I have nothing to do but yet I have holidays. Now I want to play World of Warcraft and DOD but I have to work. Kinda sad. But, that's life.

EXAMS AND MORE!

2006-02-23T13:00:00.000-08:00

Ok, haven't been updating in a long time. Kinda like SO BUSY. Haha. At last all the presentations are over which also means that the exams are here. My exam schedule this year sucks totally. I have a paper tomorrow and consecutive papers for 4 days next week from tuesday to friday. I am so going to die. Yet somehow though I say this I don't really feel all that flustered and worried. I wonder why. Hope that I can pass this sem with better grades than last sem. Valentines day has passed and just another normal day for me. In fact actually its just another day with exceptionally high price tags on everything hahaha! and before that it was just stressing over my java project. Stressed my eyes until I had to pick up a pair of specs. 2000 lines of codes man :(. So ok that's about it for now, shoutouts to zhenyao as today is his birthday! Good luck in everythin you do and enjoy life! and to everyone else having exams, good luck to you guys too! I so need to go and bathe now I'm gonna be late.

Full of Issues

2006-02-03T00:21:00.000-08:00

Yes ok today was a very normal day with school and all. And of course here I am going to complain about projects again hahaha. IPT deadline draws nearer and we aren't even half completed. And my group just realised today that we have to submit our BSD final report TOMORROW? Oh my.. haha will just have to stay back late again tomorrow like today.

Other than that the day was fine until dinner. Lost my temper with my mum and well didn't exactly shout at her or anything but just told her off bluntly in a normal tone. Sure normally she doesn't really involve me when she is in a rather bad mood. Usually she just picks on my dad. Today I got a taste of how he feels every morning when she nags and scolds him in the car on their way to work. She always says my dad is not responsible and all that (is true in certain ways but he is not totally irresponsible). Then she always scolds my dad and says that he is not providing for the family and only cares for himself and that he should change and blah blah. Today I realised that she is just being plain picky and over perfectionistic. She is the one that needs to change her attitude as she is too sensitive over actually everything. Today we reached downtown east for dinner after the long journey from my school to tuas to pick up my dad then all the way back to pasir ris. I was napping in the car and when I reached I was really in a daze and my back was aching. So I wasn't really smiling and all that. THEN my mum went and got angry with me for no reason, stating that she did not do anything and I was venting my anger on her because my face was "black". Like HUH?! I just wokeup man. Give me awhile to become sober and everything will be alright. So she goes on and does the nagging and scolding saying that I don't appreciate what she does and instead shows her my "black" face and blah blah blah. Then she went on to say next time I should just eat dinner myself and come home. Cool man. Actually I would if she would supply the cash :P Most of my dinners eaten outside after finishing project late comes out of my pocket and I never complained not even once. So I lost my temper and I actually just told her straight in the face "What is wrong with you?! I didn't do anything man and now I'm getting this!? You're just way too sensitive and you should learn to grow up." I always try to help her when I can with the housework as my sister stays in hostel and my dad works on Saturdays. So weekends its always me who helps her and when she does her grocery shopping I am the one who helps her too! Why can't she see all these and think about others before she starts nagging. My dad does alot of things also just that she never notices. Really depressing man. Though I shouldn't have actually lost my temper but I couldn't help it. I think that my patience is really wearing thin as I always gets irritated when she nags at my dad as well. I think if this carries on there will be a day when I really blow up and god knows what will happen. Hope this day never comes. BUT of course I do love my mum la. She's nice and does alot of stuff for us! Thank god for having her as my mum ! =]

Happy Chinese New Year!

2006-01-31T02:50:00.000-08:00

First things first! Happy Lunar New Year to everyone! Especially those who celebrate it heh. For those who don't, happy holidays then. Hope everyone is enjoying these few days and that the angbao harvest has been good! My chinese new year has been well rather uneventful? Only went visiting on the first day and spent the rest of the day at home watching tv and playing mahjong with my parents. Not many visitors cept one, one of my mum's best friends. Their kids came over too so entertained them for awhile, me and my sis played taboo with them. It actually is a really interesting and fun game, something like pictionary but you're actually describing the object to them using words and the catch is that there are certain words you can't use so you have to find ways around the normal way to describe that object. Not many outings, was home most of the day today till bout 4pm then left to meet Bryan and co for dinner and movie! Watched fearless, really just alot of fighting and nothing much else lol. Hopefully tomorrow will be a more eventful day. Really got to start getting to playing WoW soon. Trying to find the time to go get the cd and an account. bah. Okay, time to sleep. Ciaos!

A better day!

2006-01-28T02:47:00.000-08:00

Well, today is a much better day compared to yesterday. In fact I can say its literally the opposite. My day yesterday was good in the morning and sucky the rest of the day. Today my day sucked in the morning cause my group's IPT project was kinda screwed up and didn't really have many things in it. Luckily it's not the final presentation. The rest of the day well, to put it simply, I enjoyed it.

Went to celebrate CNY with my classmates today. Glad that most of the class was willing to come along, even Fabian! Cept for afew unsporting dudes. Went to Pizza Hut at Bukit Timah Plaza for lunch. The food was not bad, tried their prosperity pizzas was quite a unique taste. However, the service sucked and we even had to pay 11 bucks for service charge! Imagine going to a restaurant and waiting like 15mins to be seated when its like half empty?! And the place seemed understaffed until we realised like there were quite a number of them but all were hanging around the kitchen.. who knows what they were doing. Had to remind them like twice that their soup was finished before the guy took away the pot and had to remind them again before he put a new pot of soup back. And by then, we had already finished our main course. Imagine drinking your soup after the meal not before. Totally a 1/10 for service.

Anyway, after that we headed down to town not knowing what we were going to do. Fabian, Ben Tan, Andy, Musfirah and Caifeng left for their own activities so we were left with about 6 of us. Walked around lido, couldn't decide on a movie to watched and we walked around somemore. Ended up at cine kbox. Haven't sang karaoke in a long long time! Really enjoyed myself in the company of great people. Sang lotsa songs and laughed alot and had lotsa fun. Arron left halfway but Eugene's girlfriend, Cheryl came and joined us. Ended about 9.30 and went to eat Yoshinoya and walked around abit before heading home. What an enjoyable day because it was spent outside the whole time and I don't have to be at home listening to all the pointless arguments hah. Time to sleep spring cleaning later, not looking forward to it though.

Depression!

2006-01-27T02:02:00.000-08:00

Very very long day.. Tired, exhausted, sick, whatever man. First half of the day went well presentations were a breeze. The only sucky part was the food I ate in the morning, Char Kuay Teow with egg and luncheon meat. Got stomachache like 15mins after and JUST before my presentation. Luckily had time to rush to the toilet. The rest of the day was well. Just sucky. Apart from the stress from school and all now my family is having some crisis wtf. My mum and dad is like arguing and wanna divorce and all. Wtf man. That's just depressing. Time to sleep.

Handwriting Quiz

2006-01-22T03:01:00.000-08:00

Just did this quiz recommended by Gabriel and I am quite amazed by the results. It's quite accurate in alot of places.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Benjamin has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Benjamin fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Benjamin has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Benjamin just comes into someone's home and helps himself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Benjamin finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when he was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

Benjamin has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Benjamin's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Benjamin has regarding sex and physical things. So, his lower zone stroke is large, so his sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Benjamin is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.

Something is incomplete in Benjamin's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Benjamin's sexual needs.

Benjamin is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Benjamin's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Benjamin that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Benjamin also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Benjamin is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Benjamin's self-concept is artificially low. Benjamin will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Benjamin to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Benjamin is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

In reference to Benjamin's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Benjamin slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Benjamin can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Benjamin will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

Benjamin will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Benjamin believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.

Benjamin is moderately outgoing. His emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. He has the ability to put himself into the other person's shoes. Benjamin will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. He has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because he is in between. Psychology calls Benjamin an ambivert. He understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." He doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. He puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Benjamin is an expressive person. He outwardly shows his emotions. He may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Benjamin is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. He weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when he finally has to. He basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Benjamin doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Its up to you to believe which parts you want to! :D

Nickelback!

2006-01-22T02:30:00.000-08:00

Been kinda addicted to Nickelback songs man. They are a really good band! Their songs are nice and the lyrics are meaningful too! Their songs kinda all have some story to tell haha. Their MTVs are all similarly themed about a couple and then something happens to the guy or something.. lol. Well the current song that I'm hooked on to is Photograph, but Far Away and Someday is nice also.

Nickelback - Photograph

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if It's too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now then it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it

So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me

Dinner and moodless feelings

2006-01-21T00:26:00.000-08:00

2nd post in the same day. Wow, and to think i can not post in such a long time hah. Don't know why today I don't have the mood to do anything but yet can blog. Been having this kind of feeling where when you sigh you feel like a huge stone just dropped from your chest. My mum always says she has that feeling and says its because of stress, but am i stressed?! I feel so slack in fact. Feel like there is something I am supposed to be doing yet I can't think of anything else besides studying but I don't think thats it hah. Everytime I feel like doing something 2 secs later I will feel oh nvm forget it I don't feel like it anymore. WHAT IS THIS -__-?!?! What's wrong with me hah.

Ok nevermind about that sucky feeling. Met my mum and sis for dinner at plaza sing today. Went to eat Manhattan Fish Market. I tell you, that place is like an exact replica of Fish & Co. just that one is red themed and the other is blue and the menu differs slightly (really minimal) lol. They even serve the same 3 things, the mayo, the ginger?, and the chilli. Whats more I had fish and chips, ITS THE EXACT SAME THING!! Even the lemon butter sauce thing is the same. Lol, I get the feeling both restaurants are under the same company hah. But they have these flamed prawn thingy which my mum and sis had. Really cool, the guy serves then takes out a can of WD40 and flames the prawns on the spot. Interesting shit. hah. Oh and I think that it is slightly cheaper too! So, do try it if you have the time. Thanks to gab for the introduction of this place :) Maybe I'm gonna sleep like now hah sleep is the best cure for everything!

Unexpectedly Boring Day

2006-01-20T14:14:00.000-08:00

It's friday and i'm blogging in the afternoon.. for the first time. It's a really unexpectedly boring day. E learning this week so got no classes. Planned to go out with friends to do some cny shoppin but always last minute decisions and until now nothing confirmed still lol. So here I am stuck at home feeling like doing nothing. I feel like a sloth, sleeping and sleeping and doing nothing. Let's just hope they confirm soon, else i'm just gonna meet my mum and sis for dinner. Been quite a real hectic week with lots of assignments and projects due. But can say that most of it is completed already thank god for great groupmates and the other groups as well for reference and of course Rane and co for booking the project room. The weather was so sucky I bet we wouldn't have done much sitting in the canteen. As for results, can say that i did unexpectedly above expectations for all the papers I got back so far heh which is good I guess. Hope I can keep this up till the end of my poly life lol. Nothing else much to write about so I guess I shall stop here. CNY is coming so best wishes to everyone, hope you all get lotsa ang paos! :) HUAT AH! hahaha. Hope I have a chance to meet up with all my friends real soon. Been so busy with work haven't met up with some of them in ages.

Sakae Sushi!

2006-01-13T03:04:00.000-08:00

Been feeling rather moody lately, don't know why hah always getting worked up easily.. Maybe because of exam stress? Though I think that it is an unlikely possibility hahaha!

Oh well, anyway went to eat Sakae Sushi today with my classmates! Had a great time today, one of the best in many days! Managed to persuade the teacher to push our lesson 2 hours forward so we had time to go eat. It's been a long time since we had a class outing like that in such a big group though afew people didn't come because they wanted to attend lecture. There were 8 of us, me, eugene, bryan, andy, arron, rane, winnie and caifeng. Usually the girls don't join us but today was an exception hahah the weather has been shitty and everyone wanted to eat something hot. Originally planned to eat at Seoul Garden but when we reached there we were shocked to see that it was under renovation.. and that renovation would be completed on 14th Jan.. We were like wtf?!?!?! Just heard from another of my friend that Seoul Garden outlet caught fire.. which explains the renovations. Guess we were not fated to eat there. Ended up at Sakae Sushi instead because everyone wanted to eat alot and at a reasonable price so we chose Sakae's buffet. Man we really did eat ALOT. I think we ate a total of like 100 over plates, personally I think i ate at least 20. But the food was not the only good thing! We had lots and lots of fun and the jokes were really funny, ended up knowing lotsa stuff now. It's been a long time since I laughed like that too hahaha. I think that this is a start to more outings! Felt totally stuffed after that and when I reached home, after my shower and all I just totally knocked out hah. Planned to wake up at 11 but woke up at 2AM instead lol. Gonna go back to sleep soon again. I always felt that the class was rather seperated though we were all friends. Guess and hope this is a sign that things are going to change for the better! Took us long enough! I think we should like have an outing like this at least once a week hahaha. I think if i'm not wrong next week would be Carl's Jr! And Pizza Hut the eve of CNY eve :D Plans for a Msia trip are also being made before we all head to our respective attachments, hope that planning this trip would be a success!

On to other things, thinking so much about enjoying but yet the stress of projects is piling in.. Deadlines are near! Must concentrate on projects as well! >_< Have yet to complete the HRM project though it is mostly done. Will have to work on it during the weekend!

2006

2006-01-04T01:16:00.000-08:00

Well been really lazy to update not to mention the fact that i've been packed with activities and common tests are well.. around the corner, literally.

So it's finally 2006! Happy New Year to everyone! Another year gone another year started. 2005 was eventful I should say, I legally turned 18 (which is like the passport to lotsa stuff). Made lots of new friends, lost loved ones, finally quit competitive gaming and managed to concentrate a little more on other more important aspects of life like study, family and of course working for money. Had a very quiet christmas and rather quiet new year spending most of my time with family, in church and at home sleeping. Had a BBQ on 30th which was I should say quite a disaster but I shall not elaborate on that since its already in the past year. Had quarrels that well I hope that can be settled, said some things that shouldn't have been said and got returned the favour. Hopefully this year will be fruitful and much better than 2005. Well I should say that I am off to a good start by already going to sign up for my driving lessons and well it'd be a bonus if I did well in my tests this and next week. Hope that 2006 brings good stuff for everyone as well and that everyone will be happy! More friends, less enemies!

Well, since like almost everyone's blog that I read had a wishlist/new year's resolution I think that I should have a section for those too!
New Year's Resolution
1) To stop procrastinating in general
2) Work hard and do well in studies
3) Love and spend more time with family
4) Become closer to God
5) Improve ties and settle all quarrels with friends
6) Start exercising
7) Pass my driving test by June

2006 Wishlist
1) Ipod Video (or any other portable media player that can play videos)
2) A bowling spare ball
3) World of Warcraft
4) New mp3 headphones/earpieces

Well, at the moment that is all :s hopefully I do fulfill/get my wishitems this year!

Bowling!

2005-12-29T01:31:00.000-08:00

I am so happy today! Went for Kim Seng's 8pin tap fun bowl. Hit my first perfect game today! In fact 2 :D Although it is still 8pin tap and is so much easier to get a perfect game but still, not many people can get it twice heh. Today was a productive day too, finally stopped hesitating and went to sign up for my basic theory test. Omg man my test is like on Feb 10th -_- thats like 2 months.. Man this kinda sucks but I only have myself to blame lol been procrastinating since September bah! Alright gonna catch up on some animes then sleep. Nights people!

HEHEHE B is me :)

Christmas Time Is Here!

2005-12-25T04:23:00.000-08:00

Seasons Greetings! Merry Christmas, Best Wishes and God Bless everyone! :) The spirit of christmas is in the air, carols can be heard for miles around. On radio, in shops, on the streets! Yes! What a wonderful time of year this is, gift giving and receiving, spending time with family and loved ones and just enjoying the atmosphere. But with all these, let us not forget about the true meaning of christmas! The real celebration of the greatest gift from God, the birth of his son, Jesus Christ.

Ok enough of that =) Hope everyone had an enjoyable christmas eve. I spent mine having dinner with my family at the Pan Pacific Hotel. There was an impressive array of food, from cold cuts to meats to dessert. Seafood seemed to be the main attraction of the day with lots of sashimi, crabs, oysters and at least 4 types of prawns including drunken prawns :O~ . There were lotsa cakes and puffs, bread puddings, durian log cakes, assortments of fruits and err 4 flavours of ice cream? Yup. Enjoyed the dinner alot, it's been awhile since my family had a dinner together.. usually its just 2 or 3 of us not full attendance lol. Went to church about 10.30 to ensure seats for midnight mass. My very first time attending midnight mass haha. It was quite fun and the church choir was singing carols though at some parts it was quite messy but not bad overall. I enjoyed the service today although it was longer.. I guess it was because the mood was there and everyone seemed to be enjoying as well heh. Another good thing about christmas is that everyone dresses up nicely. A good change from the usual casual sloppy dressing hahaha. Saw lotsa pretty girls wearing dresses and looking their best. Sad that I don't know any lol! So anyway came back about 2am and now it's time to sleep! Took afew photos with my lousy handphone camera but I guess it's better than nothing since we don't own a digital camera lol. Ciaoz and once again, Merry Christmas everyone!

Yes okay I promised some pics so here they are.

Me at Pan Pacific

My Sister

Sis and Mum

Christmas Tree at home.. all the lights blew :(

Many Events!

2005-12-20T22:26:00.000-08:00

Been an eventful weekend and had lots of fun. Went to KL for bowling camp! But didn't really bowl as much as I expected to. Most of the other time was just free and easy so walked around MidValley Megamall alot, really huge place similar to Suntec City. Cept that the fastfood was much cheaper and so was the cinema tickets! Watched Chronicles of Narnia - The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe there for just RM11 hah. The show was not bad cept that I felt the ending could have been better and more closely followed to the book. Stayed in Cititel for the 3 days.. The hotel was not bad, the room was quite nice with the exception of a cockroach running around on the first day but lucky it kept a low profile the rest of the days or it would've been dead meat. The only problem with the hotel is the lift. The last day the lifts were jam packed and after 7 full lifts we had to take it all the way up to the 28th floor and come down again not to mention that the lift stopped at every floor on the way down. -_-. Some other guy in the lift commented that the lift should have a FULL function and when it's full the lift should just go all the way down without stopping and after that proceeded to call malaysia a fourth world country which I found quite amusing heh.

All our nights were spent at someone else's room playing cards and watching soccer and just chit chatting and eating snacks and room service! Won abit of money from cards but sad to say didn't really buy much this trip. Didn't feel like buying anything. The only thing I bought was a Initial D AE86 pillow, it was kinda cool haha. But of course all trips will have good and bad times and the most screwed up part of my trip was the journey back. Got stuck at the bridge between the Malaysia checkpoint and the Singapore checkpoint for more than 2 hours with the addition of the queuing at Singapore customs which makes it about 3 hours total. Crossed the Malaysian checkpoint at 1045pm and reached Singapore checkpoint at 1am..By the time I got home it was about 3am and I have to wakeup at 830 the next day. But still i had lots of fun on the bus trips to and from KL and really became very much closer with all the peeps that went for the camp. Although there were times where tension was high when everyone was rushing for time, overall I'm sure everyone enjoyed and thank god for all of it. I am really looking forward to the next trip and hopefully it would be for a longer period of time! Here are some pictures of the trip! Too many to post so I shall just post some :)

THE DEALER :o

Kenneth on drugs

At the hotel lobby

Big Bear Hon Pun!

The picture speaks for itself

The MidValley Megamall Bowling Alley

Me throwing a shot

BALLS!

Davin

Mass orgy in the room

Arthur the Bag Guarder

Arthur Davin Kenneth

Jiahao, Hon Pun, Me, Kenneth

The 2 bouncers of NP Bowling Club

Group photo before leaving the hotel

Look at all the pigs!

More pigs =X

The QUITE sucky chinese dinner :(

Me and Hon Pun :O

What I got from the christmas gift exchange

Poor Kenneth

The 2 gays

Hon Pun raping Wei Jie

My AE86 pillow :D

Lollipops?

Wee Siong acting tough

Me and Kenneth

Bowling Club Lefties

"THE ONE" ball club

Arthur, Hon pun and 2 AE86s?!

Lovely couple Derek and Deone

WTF when was this taken?!

Big bear tired from the trip.

Thats all for now :D

Wedding

2005-12-12T01:03:00.000-08:00

Went for Ignitius and Jyue Huey's wedding dinner last night. Must say that it really was an experience for me. It is the first friend's wedding I attended instead of the usual relatives ones which meant that my parents were not around. I feel so old now hahaha! It was held at Plaza ParkRoyal at beach road. The place was not bad and the food was good too! Had alot of fun with the people there and heard of their respective wedding experiences and they were so wild! Lol. The things people do at their weddings.. like almost all of them got drunk on their wedding night lol. Kinda makes me think what my wedding will be like in future BUT thats a long long long long long way more. Anyway hope I will get some of the photos of the wedding soon. I'll post them up lol. Now I only have a pic of myself before the wedding hahaha. Have a test tomorrow and I only studied like 60% so far. Gonna have to study in school :( so I'm gonna head to bed early. Cya. Oh I also hope that Gabriel gets well soon. He seems to be really sick :(

Picture of me! :O Pictures of the wedding to come soon.

Tired, Exhausting yet Motivated

2005-12-11T03:15:00.000-08:00

Been quite a long week, been home after twelve for 3 days in a row already (sorry mum!) but it has to be done :).. Next week is going to be another long week with alot of challenges for me. But I have to overcome them if I want to make it in life. Hope that I have the strength and courage and not to feel depressed upon rejection. Though tired, this week has been very motivating as well and I have never been so motivated to do anything as I am now before!

In the meantime congratulations to Ignitius and Jyue Huey for getting married! May god bless and everything go smoothly and you 2 love each other forever! :D Pic of the bride and groom!

New Goals and Targets!

2005-12-10T01:29:00.000-08:00

Well, finally found something meaningful and time consuming for me to do. Gonna start working :) Time to play less games and concentrate more on other stuff!

Goals to Achieve by 30 Years old
1. Earn my first million
2. Drive a luxury car
3. Get my own private apartment/condominium

THE ONE

2005-12-07T01:37:00.000-08:00

Well, little update. Finally got my bowling ball :) Played a 8 pin tap tournament yesterday and got and average of 246.6 over 6 games which is not bad i feel, got 10th out of 73 and won 30 bucks to just nice cover my cost for the tournament. Heh. Sprained my arm muscles in the process though now it's aching like hell.. but I guess it was worth it since I really enjoyed myself :)

Exams coming, projects piling up. Stress is building up but it's all good in a way. CS team disbanded as expected.. I seemed to be the catalyst oh well. Now just pure SRO and bowling :). Still moodless could always use a good chat if you're free just message me. Ciaoz.

Random Ramblings

2005-11-28T01:23:00.000-08:00

Hmmm, well it's 1am and I feel so moodless.. The feeling where you don't want to do anything at all yet feel so unhappy because you're not doing anything haha. Perhaps I'm weird but I always get these kinda stupid feelings.. and this is the time where my mind wanders far and wide.. and then I will start to think about the usual things that I always think of. I always get the feeling I'm kinda wasting my life, I don't really enjoy my days and neither am I actually doing something useful.. I mean like at least if i really enjoy although I'm not doing anything it's ok, or if I do something useful like study even though I don't enjoy then it's ok as well! But the problem is I'm doing neither of these -_-.. Like wasting my life away man, the same old routine life everyday go school come home sit myself in front of my computer and just play the same games over and over or just stare at the monitor for hours. I'm getting fat too hahahah! But although I always think about this, up till now, I haven't done anything! Damnit. Anyone got any suggestions for me to change or stop procrastinating? Please msg me! Urgent! Maybe I should find a job hah and hopefully a companion for me to pester and sceammmm all my stress to haha. And because of this I seem to be having some sort of PMS man, snapping at everyone at the slightest things and now i feel like shit. Oh well maybe a good night's rest will make me feel better. Oh and maybe I should resize the pics.. kinda making my blog out of proportion hahah! But there I go again being lazy LOL

412 Class Gathering

2005-11-27T02:26:00.000-08:00

Met up with my old classmates from sji on Thursday for dinner, man I miss those guys and all those days we had back in sji. It's been a long long time since I actually met up with most of them except for a few like Jeremy, Mark, Jaime and Terence and it was good to see them again. After O's, all of us went different ways, most to JC and afew to poly and in this 2 years, time flew and people changed. We went for dinner at Fish and Co. glass house at Dhoby Ghaut.. only about 16 people confirmed but the turnout was so much better than expected. 21 people came and thats about 75% of the class already even with everyone having their own schedules and so on. The food was not bad.. but the company was great. Talks of old times and memories were refreshed once again. Alot of the people have changed tremendously in terms of outlook from the nerdy good boys back in SJI to the now havoc wrecking punks of polytechnic and JCs hahah! Well most of them are going to army soon and I don't know when the next outing is going to be but I doubt it will be soon.. maybe when we go back for the SJI reunion dinner in 2013 heh. Well, here are some pics of the gathering.

Bernie, Vince and Jackson

Mark Yeo and Jeremy looking excited over god knows what

One side of the table

Mr Bamanshaw and his smiling, constipated look!

Terence, Mark Lai and Sufyan

Junjie, Nicholas, Me

Julian, Imran, and WTF is with the look on Junjie's face..

Haikal, Farhan, Jeremy acting cool and Julian

Err, Fish and Co?

Junjie ( Why does he always have some funny look on his face ), Nicholas, Me, Mr Bamanshaw

Group Picture and Jaime with the huge grin!

Mr Bamanshaw stressed out by the bill.. (Yes he paid for our service charge and GST! You rock sir!)

Class photo =)

Another Class photo outside at the LOVE monument.

Long Day

2005-11-24T00:14:00.000-08:00

Well, been quite a long day.. started off at 9am when i wokeup. Sometimes I kinda regret choosing NP because its so damn far!!! Haha. Had to leave at 9.30 when my class is at 11 and most people are still asleep :(. Guess the travelling time is what makes a person more tired than he should be. Free time with nothing to do works the same way.. Class ended at 1 then had 2 hours break before lecture at 3.. Went to canteen 3 for Roti Prata, haven't been there in ages and I can say that the standard of the prata has dropped :(.. Spent most of the time stoning in the canteen and was so exhausted during lecture I slept like 75% of it. I wonder why I get tired so easily these days man. The lecture though i slept alot of it, I woke up in time for the most important parts.. the notes were like 85 slides and only the last 15 slides were useful the rest were just plain bull man. Had another 1 hour break AGAIN.. before going for my japanese class. Truthfully, this is the class i look forward to the whole week haha.. I enjoy japanese and to make things better my teacher is cool! and pretty too hahahaha! Class ended at 8 then headed on to church.. Ended at like 1015.. by the time I reached home it was 11pm. Man Wednesdays are really long days... totally exhaust the shit out of me man. And I have to wake up at 6am later.. how sucky is that -_-.

Well on a brighter note, I heard the news that my new bowling ball "THE ONE" shipment has arrived in Singapore! I can get it next week! Whee! Oh and I was reading Rockson's Blog. Man he is one hell of a funny dude man.. his style of writing and his comments oh man. He really made my night! And I do agree with some of the things he write about too haha. You guys should take a look if you have the time. I guarantee you won't regret! Aight, gonna pack stuff and file my notes then hit the sack! =)

Movies & Bowling!

2005-11-20T21:09:00.000-08:00

Been a activity packed weekend revolving mainly around 2 things, movie and bowling! Just realised how much I love bowling man. Went to watch the 2nd day of my school's IVP bowling team selection to support Jiahao, pity he didn't bowl that well and wasn't selected. Oh well there's always next year! And I'm gonna try to get in to the team too! Hah. Went to watch Harry Potter: The Goblet of Fire in the morning with Jiahao too. Kinda found it ok, the effects were not bad but there were alot of errors when compared with the book although I can't really pick all of them out but it seems alot of Harry Potter fans were unhappy with the movie. You can get a more detailed view on the movie by visiting XiaXue's Blog. Reached home quite early and had a early night since my sister borrowed my laptop for the week and without it I don't have any games :(

Went bowling again on today morning with Jiahao. Signed up for some fun bowling tournament and played 8 games. The registration fee was a bit costly though =/ a hefty sum of 40 bucks which at the moment is ALOT >_<. My bowling was average as usual with an average of 146 over 8 games.. and I can't believe it i'm one of the last few hah! Jiahao on the other hand was on a rampage bowling a 190 average pity he had a couple of average games if not he would have hit a 200+ average. But the other people there were like hustlers man all the old people, league bowlers and even the bookies were there. Man we had no chance against them.. I was cheated by the poster that said only average below 165 bowlers allowed.. and like 70 of the 83 bowlers have 170 average at least =.= . But on a happier note, my new bowling ball is coming in next week ! I'm so excited heh, its called THE ONE. Suitable name for one like me eh? Just kidding! Haha glad that it would come before the bowling camp.. i'm looking forward to that too. The only problem is again money =/. Wonder where I'll find the cash for the camp in KL after I've paid for my bowling ball.. Don't really think I should ask my parents.. perhaps I shall borrow from my sis first then pay her back after working during the December 2 weeks break.

Went to watch Just Like Heaven after that with Jiahao and Bennet at Tiong Bahru Plaza. Felt that it was a really good show worth my money. Haven't seen a love story in ages and this one was well, something new haha. NOTE: SPOILER, DONT READ ON IF YOU DONT WANT THE MOVIE TO BE SPOILT. I felt the storyline was unique, it was about this female doctor, who was so busy she never had time for a boyfriend. Then one day when she was about to go on this matchmaking session, she met with an accident. 3 months later, this guy moved into the appartment and started seeing her ghost. She didn't even know she was "dead" and this guy was the only one who could see her. So the story goes on about how they at first were quarreling over whether she was dead or not but it seemed that no one else could see her so he had to help find out what had happened to her. Her memory was kinda lost too after "dying" and was slowly regained along the way. Finally they found out that she was still alive but had been in a coma for 3 months already and they had to find a way to get her spirit back into the body before the body really dies. So well endings are pretty cliche so I shan't bother to elaborate. But overall the movie was well done, it was touching and also funny at times. Great show to catch if you're not looking for action or horror shows. Thats about it for today =)

Update !

2005-11-17T03:42:00.000-08:00

Well, I almost forgot this place existed! Ok well not really, it's just plain procrastination and laziness. Don't know why I decided to just post some stuff today. Life has been good, and bad as well with lots of unexpected things happening. My uncle passed away slightly more than a month back, wanted to blog but blogger had to be down on that day so I guess its fate that my blog stayed unupdated. He was a good man, quiet but always caring for others and I have some very happy and worth remembering memories of him. Since I was young I'd always visit him and he'd bring me out and stuff and since I was so small in size then I remember always sleeping on his stomach.. He'd always give me money out of the blue too.. Always had dinner with him and my aunt and I remember just eating at the same table with him like 5 months back just before cancer came and brought him on to a better place. His life was relatively short and I'm sure he has alot of things left behind unfulfilled and that is what I feel is the most sad.. He was a great artist too, but was never able to pursue his artistic career.. He was a master with pencils and I can remember the cars he used to draw and even the 3 pictures that he drew when he was down with cancer.. The pictures are just beautiful and full of emotion that I can't describe. Perhaps if I have a chance I will snap pictures of the drawings and put them up here.. But, he has gone on to someplace better and i'm sure he is watching over my aunt and my family wherever he is right now. I will miss him and definitely remember him. May he rest in peace.

Well on to other things, holidays came and went and it's already the start of a new semester. Kinda started off the semester on the wrong foot by already missing a couple of classes even though it has only been 3 weeks. Really have to get myself back on the right track. Been gaming alot as usual, playing Silkroad Online and suddenly playing back counterstrike to my amusement (I never thought I'd play back competitive) haha. But I hope all goes well in my new team and that I won't be lettin Gabriel down =). Been havin the flare for bowling as well and lookin forward to my new bowling ball at the end of the month! Ok I shall head to bed now got to wakeup in 5 hours time. My next entry will be.. hey wait! why should you care =P

Waseda Shibuya Senior High School Festival!

2005-09-19T00:42:00.000-07:00

Well, first off i just realised that my new layout does not have titles.. weird must figure out how to fix that lol. Anyway, earlier today I went for the Waseda Shibuya Senior High School Festival. It was kinda fun, like a school funfair with games and all like haunted houses and stuff like maze of suspense lol. There was even a tea ceremony thing where we could experience what it is like in a proper japanese tea ceremony. I enjoyed on the whole but kinda regretted that this time I wasn't able to take pics with japanese girls.. sigh! Haha oh well, lets leave the rest of the talking to the pics!

The School From Outside

The Place Inside

Orchid Cafe (Buns, Bento, etc)

Some Cool Banner

Band Performance

Fish-A-Yo-Yo

Kenny gets his ass kicked

Me, Alvin, Kenny

Waiting to go into the Maze of Suspense

Battle of the Sexes

Man-in-a-Bubble! He looks like he's gonna get castrated!

Me-in-a-bubble!

Tea Ceremony Procedure

Pouring the water

Serving of Tea By Pretty Ladies!

And More...

Bowing..

Pretty Lady! Saw her at Natsu Matsuri too!

Another shot at the person preparing the tea

Well, thats about it for the photos! Can't wait for the next festival man.. Japanese people are just so cool, they have like this coolness aura around them man haha and the way they dress owns.. I'm gonna aim for a Japanese University man.. go there and study and be like them! Hahahah! =P

New Layout!

2005-09-18T20:17:00.000-07:00

Yes! As the topic says :D I finally got down to changing my layout haha. Settled for something rather simple but I chose it because i liked the colours. Kinda refreshing and relaxing to the eyes. Changed my tagboard too.. This tagboard looks much cooler and isn't as bulky as my previous one heh. Well, hope this new layout can fit my pics and not just links... >_< Gonna post some pics later. For now, break!

A Story To Share

2005-09-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

Well, its been ages since i posted anything lol. Wanted to change the layout but in the end just didn't get down to doing it hah. Oh well, maybe soon (I Hope!) since exams have ended for me anyway and its holidays already. Hope that my results will be quite ok hah. Well I was browsing around Gabriel's blog and was reading a story that he posted. It was very nice so I thought that I'd just share it in my blog too! Which is the main reason for this post heh. Credits to Gabriel :)and I agree with his views and well if you really decide to take the step of marriage you should stick with it forever and don't regret or else don't even make the move or someone will be hurt really bad. So anyway, here's the story:

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene of ten years ago...

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water. We had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life...

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girls' sights." Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls". Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I can't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said, "You go and select some furniture, okay? I have got something to do in the company." Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she will be busy preparing dinner. I will be sitting in front of the TV. Dinner will be ready, then we will watch television together. Or, lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was my means of entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking manner, "Suppose we divorce, what will you do?" She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife sympathetically and behaved awkwardly while talking with her. She seemed to have gotten some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates.

Once again, Dew said to me, "He Ning, divorce her, okay? Then we'll live together." I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you", I said.

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I saw the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly, I didn't know how to talk. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, "Why?". "I am serious." I avoided her question. My answer made her angry. She threw the chopsticks and shouted at me, "You are not a man! "

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I couldn't give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would soon become a stranger. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally, she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me, her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had bugged me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

One late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up in the middle of the night, she was still there. I turned over and slept again. She brought up her divorce conditions, she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her a month's time before our divorce, and in that month's time, we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple. Our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, "He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on our wedding?" This question suddenly brought back all the wonderful memories. I nodded and said, "I remember." "You carried me in your arms," she continued, "So, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning."

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic manner.

I told Dew about my wife's conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what she does, she has to face divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any physical contact since my intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other like strangers. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, "Daddy is holding mummy in his arms!" His words brought to me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and softly said, "Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus and I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us felt easier. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I saw that she has aged. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, "The garden outside is being demolished, be careful when you pass by there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The image of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me of something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, that I should be careful while cooking and such. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was growing stronger.

I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout has made me stronger. I said to her, "It feels easier to carry you now."

She was picking her clothes. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, "All my clothes have grown bigger". I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her easier, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it's time to carry mum out." He said. To him, seeing his father carry his mother out has become an essential part of his life. She gestured for our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I looked away because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand holding my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, like our wedding before. But her much smaller build made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move. Our son had gone to school. She said, "Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old."

I held her tightly and said, "Both you and I didn't notice our life was lacking of such intimacy."

Driving to Dew's house, I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the doors. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I will not file for a divorce. I am serious."

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. "You haven't got a fever." I moved her hand off my head. "I'm Sorry, Dew," I said, "I will not divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that, since I carried her into my home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. I can only say sorry to you."

Dew seemed to have woken up. She gave me a tight slap and then slammed the door and cried. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I bought a bouquet for my wife. The greeting card read, "I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."

Well on another note, dengue fever has been spreading around so remember to throw away all stagnant water and don't get sick! :D Oh and FF7 - Advent Children is a blast do be sure to catch it :)

Hmm...

2005-09-03T11:57:00.000-07:00

Hmm... Been browsing other people's blogs lately and suddenly the feeling for changing my layout came by.. haha.. Maybe I'll change my layout later this afternoon.. Want something simple where others can read easily lol ( yes yes i received many complaints :x ) heh. Probably go for something like Gabriel's blog.. Realised I can't post pictures on the spot as you might have noticed in previous posts where all the pictures are links.. Due to the extremeeely small space for entries in this layout. Ok I shall be back later. With a new layout hopefully heh.

Regret

2005-08-29T03:54:00.000-07:00

Well, nothing much to post so just thought I'd do a short update before I head off to bed :). Been kinda stressed lately with assignments and projects, thank god this is the last week before all the projects are over.. Just 1 more on Thursday! Exams are in 10 days and thats not helping. This year is a very much unfortunate year I could say as WCG qualifiers are on the exact same day as my exams. Wonder how I am gonna cope, probably will forfeit WCG if time does not permit. Gotta concentrate on my studies more man. My first sem was a flop and now regrets are piling in and I've gotta work doubly hard to cover back for my shitty first sem. Lucky I do have hardworking classmates, Thanks Ben Tan and Eugene! Haha, without you guys I'd probably not get anything done.. lunch on me tomorrow! Gonna head over to JAS (Japanese Association of SG) tomorrow for lunch and study with them. Great place with a quiet ambience, perfect for study.

August is gonna end, hope that September will be a better month for me. Been feeling lonely and confused the past month as though something is missing. I hope that I can find my answers soon and pull myself together. Currently emotional unstable though carefree I may look on the outside, if only I had not screwed up earlier with wrong decisions which I deeply regret now.. Which reminds me, my birthday is coming! Haha, all you people out there ! *Hint Hint* Haha, just joking :) A simple birthday wish will do :X. Wonder how I am going to spend my birthday this year, still haven't had any plans for the day.. Originally hoped to spend the day with someone special but hadn't had any courage to ask.. I doubt that she would agree to go anyway since she is so busy with school as well and we aren't really that close anymore.. Anyone out there who wants to go out on Sunday please tell me ! Really wanna catch a movie, haven't watched one in ages.. Herbie Fully Loaded perhaps! The trailer looks good. Anyway, time to head off to bed. Probably not gonna update till after my birthday. So all you people out there, remember to be good kids :D and don't miss me! >_<

PMKT Presentation!

2005-08-26T22:34:00.000-07:00

Hey again! Just had my Principles of Marketing Presentation on Wednesday, which marks pretty much the end of all my projects cept for 1 more which is not that important. It was a formal presentation and it was kinda cool since everyone wore formal and everyone looked so good. I kinda like to wear formal since its a change from my usual sloppy self haha =X The feeling is good when you walk around in school and people are looking at you heh. So anyway, I think my group did the best presentation (Expected) since it can be said that all the best presenters were in my group. Our tutor is very nice but she's extremely strict when it comes to time, so stingy that she would mark us late even if we were just 2-3 mins late. This characteristc of hers made alot of groups screw up since 2 of the 4 groups exceeded the time limit by alot. Thankfully my group just made it exactly within the 20mins. Our presentation was the only one which did not market a electronic product like handphones or laptops. We were unique! We did the project on Durex Condoms! Hahahaha! Cool? :P So anyway it all turned out great and I really enjoyed the presentation. Went out with the class after that to chill and had earthquake at Swensens, yummy! Haha so here are some of the pics that we took! Enjoy!

Before Presentation

The guys in my group!

Playing with Rane's stuffed toys! Omg haha!

Me and Eugene with stuffed toys! Cute eh?

Group photo after presentation!

Regina, Me and Eugene

Formal Class Photo!

Informal Photo :X

Condom man!

Group Pic at Swensens!

Where's my food?!?!

Cherry! Yum! Wow i've got red eyes!

Haha thats about all :P Will update again in future. For now, enjoy!

Natsu Matsuri 2005!

2005-08-26T03:00:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone :P, sorry that I have been neglecting blogging.. but there has really been no feeling or inspiration to blog at all haha and also the fact that I have been busy with projects and school. However, I am now back for a entry! Haha. This entry was supposed to be written on Sunday however I didn't receive the pics till yesterday so I had to keep it off till today.

Went for Natsu Matsuri (I think it means Japanese Summer Festival or something) on Saturday with #Anime-friend peeps. Really enjoyed myself man.. it was my first time going for it though the others went for afew years already. It was held at the Changi Japanese School and the sight when I first stepped in was quite overwhelming, the number of people was amazing.. and to think that we never really see much japanese people around but there are actually alot of them in Singapore. Thank god for being able to get tickets beforehand as the ticket queue on that day was -_-. The festival is actually like a carnival where you use coupons to buy food and drinks or play games like catching goldfishes with the net thingy and also getting yoyos. There was a performance going on too on a big stage in the centre with groups performing ranging from kids to adults. Most of the girls were dressed in their traditional yukatas and the sight was just.. so beautiful. I feel that girls really look their best when they wear these kinda cultural costumes, it just makes them look so much better. There were guys dressed in traditional costumes too, looks like those olden samurai when not in battle suits haha quite cool but of course not my type :P. So we were basically walking around, slacking and eating and looking around.. Took quite a number of pictures which i will post later below.. At night from around 8-10 there was this mass dance thing where everyone formed big circles around the stage and danced together.. The performers on stage taught everyone how to dance.. I think its a traditional dance called the bon odori (dori? ordori? not sure :P) dance or something. Its kinda like a series of dances where there are different movements for each part of the dance. It was very fun especially when you do it with friends and strangers as well. In the end there were 3 big circles formed .. so many people were dancing.. haha. There was this 1 part where we had to hold hands with each other and dance.. I was at the corner of my group which meant that my other side would be a stranger. A japanese girl was on my left side.. I was kinda scared to hold her hand but she took mine first instead.. was stunned haha but oh well :P would be dumb to reject eh hahaha especially since its a kawaii girl :x. But after that i didn't even talk to her.. kinda regretted. So rude of me haha and I would really have liked to have taken a picture with her for memory. The festival ended at about 10.. and me and the AF peeps went down to tampines to send Ruby home.. After that all of us proceeded to Pasir Ris for supper and they ended up sleeping at my house. It was nuriko's birthday too! Happy bday nuri! haha. All in all, it was really fun! I really enjoyed myself and I'm gonna go for every such event in future! And next year i'm gonna wear a yukata to Natsu Matsuri too! Along with all the AF peeps. Hmmm okay enough talk. I know this is what everyone actually just wants to see, pictures! P.S i editted the pictures to links so that you guys can view the whole thing. My layout cant view the whole image omg :(

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In the queue to get into Natsu Matsuri!

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The queue ahead of us -___-

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What it looks like inside!

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The catch a YoYo stall! Very fun!

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The net a goldfish stall!

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A cute girl at the festival

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And more...

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Escalina and Skymouse with japanese girls.. >_< I'm not inside!

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Skymouse just loves to take pictures with girls :X

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A performance going on..

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And another performance

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Me and Ryoma with japanese girls! Kawaii neh~

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And yet again..

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More! But guess what? These girls are singaporeans! They look really japanese, didn't get their contact though haha.

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Me and a pretty lady, singaporean too!

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#Anime-friend group picture!

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AF peeps with japanese kids!

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AF group with the dance senseis!

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Part of the AF group with 2 japanese girls

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Skymouse making his last move before leaving :x

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Last group picture before going back! Subaru, Me, Skymouse, Ruby and Kurimi!

Well okay its time to end the entry. Hope you all enjoyed the pictures. Kinda regret not having the courage to get to know some of the people that i took pictures with =X haha. Oh well, there is always next year! Been feeling very lonely these few days yet there is nothing I can do about it. Projects are almost over but exams are coming.. Stress one after another.. But thank god I have great friends and great classmates to accompany me along this journey. But yet, there is still something missing, still desperately searching for it. Hope I will find it soon! Haha. Goodnight guys! Will post my next entry.. well, when I feel like it :P Jaa ne~! Oyasumi Nasai Minna !

Father's Day

2005-06-20T04:02:00.000-07:00

Well, today is Father's day. Had breakfast at Macs in the morning before heading to church with my family in the morning. Spent the whole day with my family to celebrate Father's day. Didn't have lunch due to the heavy breakfast and the fact that everywhere would definitely be packed. Went bowling as that was what my dad wanted to do. He bowled really well, probably because it was his day =X. I on the other hand screwed up pretty badly haha. My mood wasn't all that good after that and during dinner I even quarrelled with my sister, afterwhich my mom sided her and I ended up not speaking to them both heh. There goes my temper out of control again. Went home after that. Sorry dad! I screwed up your father's day.. man I really have this bad habit of screwing up big occasions. I remember the last time was my sister's birthday which I shall not elaborate.

My dad and I can be considered pretty close I guess, not just my dad but my whole family on the whole can be said to be quite close. Since young we have always spent alot of time together going bowling, having dinner as a family quite often, playing mahjong and the occasional movie even. However, as time passes and I grow older, my perspective of things have changed.. I spend more time with my friends and less with my family. When times are not so good, of course the family should be closer. Maybe we are closer in a way such that we all go to church together but attitude wise I do not think that we are very close at all. Sure the cause of the crisis may be my dad but I prefer to say that he is a victim of a series of unfortunate events. After this, it seems that I just get so irritated with him so easily.. I know this is not right but somehow it is like a natural reaction to me. I am very sure that some of the things I have said or the way I have treated him at times have been very hurting and I feel very bad myself although time and again i repeat the same mistake even though I tell myself I shouldn't. Dad, perhaps you may never see this post or how I feel but I just have to get it out.

I just want to take this chance and pay a tribute to my dad. He may not be the best person in the world, but thats just the way he is. He may have tons more shortcomings than others but he is one that cares for his family a tremendous lot more than he shows. Although irritating and embarrasing at times, as my mom says, he is still my dad and I have to respect him. I do, of course, but I am slave to my temper thus showing disrespect quite a number of times. My dad is a good man, always trying his best to provide for us and be there when we are down. I just want to say that I am very proud to have a father like you dad. Sorry for the countless problems that I have created for you but I must say that a huge reason for me being able to be what I am today is thanks to you. I love you and Happy Father's Day. =).. On a more general note, we should all be thankful that we are able to celebrate this day with our fathers. We are very fortunate as some people who want to celebrate this day may not have a chance as their fathers may have passed away. Thus, we should cherish all our loved ones, not just our father, while they are still around.

Ok now to lighten up the mood. Some interesting facts about my dad as well as my friend's dad. Taken from my friend's blog.

Moo went out with his dad (lets call him dad) who drives all the time and its their 1st time taking the MRT. Dad attempts to find a hole to slot his EZ-Link card to the horror of Moo and to the amusement of the passerbys around. Moo grabs Dad's card and scans/taps it on the reader and the gates open:

Dad : Wow Singapore so advanced now huh just scan and open sesame le.
Moo : *faints*

On the train Moo just wished he didn't knew dad. Dad behaved like a kid. Excited and hyperactive over his 1st MRT ride. NOOOOOOOO what has the world come to?!

Take note that the Moo here refers to me, that's my nickname if you haven't known by now =P.

My friend's dad drives him mad over technology for the simple man he is. His dad has all of the below mentioned devices:

1) Laptop
2) Palmtop
3) Digicam
4) Video cam
5) Ipod
6) Thumb drive mp3 player

Amazingly he doesnt use any of the above save for the laptop which he uses to type word documents -_-! Its ok that he doesn't use these stuff. Its when he DOES use them which drive me crazy. Here's a typical scenario:

Dad : Son I cannot check my email! I think the email provider is down can you please call them?
/me walks over to diagnose his problem.
*Plugs in the LAN connection from the router to laptop*
Dad : Oh.
Me : *faints*

Dear fathers. Which cave did you all come from? Here is a plea to save the little dignity and pride we have in public =X

The actual post can be found here

Hmm, speaking of technology.. I have encountered many similar experiences with my dad as well. There are times when he uses my computer for his work since his laptop crashed. He has this thumb drive which I gave to him, those plug and play type. The first time he used the thumb drive on my computer was a disaster.

Dad: Where's the cd to install the driver for the thumb drive?
Me: No need Cd lah. Just plug in can use already.
*Dad insists*
Me: -___-
*Plugs in the thumb drive and proceeds to My Computer*
Me: There! See the icon there, it shows your thumb drive already. No need driver.
Dad: Never install driver wait transfer halfway then spoil how? Later my files lost.
Me: *faints*

Perhaps talking about it like that isn't that funny but when you see him in person it is just so funny. And EMBARASSING at times too! =O. Well I guess this is the end of my post. ^_^ Goodnight!

New Layout!

2005-06-19T03:28:00.000-07:00

Yes, finally got down to changing my layout. After weeks of contemplating, I felt that my previous skin didn't really suit me. It was kinda gay too haha. So I've changed my layout. Found this layout pretty cool and the cartoon characters are cute. Well, the fonts are still small so apologies to everyone if you are having a hard time reading this.. At least I feel the colour is better haha. Simple black and white. Anyway, please keep supporting my blog =X and I need suggestions for tag board colour scheme so if you have any ideas please let me know. For now, that's about all.. Goodnight!

The Annoying Little Things

2005-06-17T03:20:00.000-07:00

Well, first off.. Sorry for neglecting this blog for so long.. I'm rather practical I don't blog unless I feel that there is something worth blogging about.. Not those day by day bloggers haha. No offence to anyone =).

Ever think about how annoying the little things can be ? Example: When you're in a rush and you forget something, Your shoes give way while you're in a hurry or having to do an extra chore for the day.. Well, I used to curse and swear alot about these things until I saw this "video" yesterday. It is actually a powerpoint slideshow with music.. What was it about? Basically it was about the september 11 attacks and how the people who were alive that were supposed to be dead sharing their stories. There was this guy who survived because it was his turn to buy donuts.. and the guy that tried his new shoes that day and developed a blister and had to go to the convenience store to get a band aid. Another one had survived because he had stopped to pick up a call. There were afew other stories which I can't really remember but from these few examples you should be able to get my point. We shouldn't always think negatively about all the annoying small little things but be thankful because it is possible that it all happens for a reason. And that may very well save your life. So now we should all try to start everyday on a positive note and no matter how bad the day might be we should tell ourselves its all happening for a reason and one that may be good at that. =) With that, I shall end the entry. Goodnight and hope you've had a good read =)

Family Day!

2005-05-29T20:04:00.000-07:00

Was out the whole day today with my family... Went to church in the morning as there was a special occasion today.. Can't remember what the exact name of the occasion was but it was about the celebration of the holy eucharist.. Went down to town after that for lunch.. Originally intended to eat at Border's Bistro but today being a Sunday meant that it was crowded and we didn't have a reservation so there was no space for us. Settled for The Big O instead.. Was quite a nice place .. a NYDC type restaurant ( Btw this restaurant and NYDC are somewhat connected ). However, the food and the service was a great disappointment. For the portion of fish that I got and the price that was to be paid .. it was totally not value for money. The dish couldn't even fill 1/4 of my stomach and there was no side dishes like fries or anything cept vegetables. On top of that, the service was slow and the waiters/waitresses were not attentive .. Had to shout at them just to get their attention and throughout the whole lunch they didn't even refill our ice water till we asked them to. The only consolation was the desert. It was good.. especially the mudpie followed by their specialty cheesecake. A lil pricey but of good quality. The mudpie had an interesting name too - When snowie meets buster or something like that.

Headed down to lido to catch Star Wars Episode 3 - Revenge of the Sith.. Well the show turned out pretty much like the ratings .. 3/5 about there.. Pretty average movie compared to the previous episodes. The main plot of the story was basically to show the transition from Anakin Skywalker to Darth Vader.. Thus resulting in quite a bit of dialogue.. There were action scenes but still uncomparable to the previous episodes and I found it quite a waste that all the jedi just got wiped out like that. They didn't even show anyone putting up a fight. Which gave the impression they were just rushing through it.. which I can't blame them .. afterall a movie only lasts 2-3 hours at most. The only thing that caught my eye was the animal/creature that Obi-Wan was riding.. kinda cool lol. My new fav character hahaha. Cute thing..

Oh yes, one more thing! Before the movie started I saw a trailer that gave me a new movie to look forward to! Chronicles of Narnia - The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe. MAN that is gonna be good man.. A lil introduction.. This movie is based on the novels by C.S Lewis. It has been around for ages already and i get the impression they decided to make it into a movie because of what a hit LOTR became. In my opinion, I think it's gonna be better than LOTR.. The storyline is definitely much simpler and it would be for all ages as well since the main characters are children.. Can't really remember the story but it is basically about 5 children sent to live in some huge house where they discover a wardrobe that leads to a magical world of magical creatures and the like. Gonna be a good one. My pick for the year! But the series comprises of i think 6-7 books so it's gonna be awhile before all of it gets made into movies.. Oh well. I think I shall read the book again and post some spoilers =X. For those who want a glimpse of what's to come you can view the trailer here.

I really have to say that i have enjoyed myself today haha thanks mom, dad, sis! Haha. Man, have been spending alot more time with my family on weekends lately. Quitting cs may really have been a blessing in disguise.. Now i have so much free time and no obligation.. Really can catch up with all my old friends and so on.. Even have more time for bowling too haha. Well, I have to thank god for opening this path for me.. Praise the lord =) Well gonna take a nap now.. Wokeup really early this morning -_- Gonna catchup on some sleep! Cya! And enjoy the trailer !

Exhausting Week

2005-05-28T03:47:00.000-07:00

Well the title says it all. Exhausting is the word. Got hit by the fever and the flu this morning. Recorded a 38.1 on the thermometer in the morning. Well I'm not sure how bad a fever that is but i know for sure it definitely is a fever.. Still decided to go to school as i could still walk. Took a panadol and went for lectures from 9am - 12noon. It was supposed to end at 1 but the lecturer released us early.. Met my freshies to pass them textbooks with Arron and Ben tan. Afterwhich headed home with Ben Tan. Was contemplating whether to go and see a doctor but decided not to in the end as I felt it was kinda a waste of money.. Decided to just take another panadol and rest for the afternoon and see whether my condition improved at night.. If it didn't then I would go and see the doctor. Thank god that my condition improved. My temperature dropped to 37.4 degrees... I know i really should be resting right now since it's 3.30 am but kinda can't help it since i slept in the afternoon and my sleeping time is basically screwed... Gotta become more normal man.

Well now, how did i end up in this state ? Guess it's being kinda slack most of the hols and suddenly 1 week + smacked full of activities and late nights just killed my immune system. Starting with BAOC which was 3 days straight.. Afterwhich I stayed over at Cindy's place and played mahjong with Gab and Thierry and didn't sleep.. Came home the next day and slept for 5 hours then went bowling.. Went bowling again on sunday and monday was the church fun bowling competition.. Man sports can be draining on the body. School started on tuesday which added a lil more stress on the mind.. Wednesday started school quite early and was out the whole day till about 11 as I went to church.. Thursday was the final blow .. Went to work as I had no school, left my house at 7.30am and met my freshies in the afternoon for sakae buffet. Was out with them till about 10.45pm ... Finally reached Friday where my body just gave way. Haha. Man.. but i guess after this week when things get more settled down everything will be just fine. Now the main thing is to get well. Gonna head to bed now.. Goodnight!

Journey of Faith

2005-05-26T03:37:00.000-07:00

Well here it is guys. This is my new blog. I'm not really intending to spread this url around as I think this blog would be more personal than my previous one. But of course those who want to link me can still do so..

As some of you may know, I have been attending RCIA classes at the Church of the Holy Cross. Today's lesson was kinda well... weird.. The session was about Journeys of Faith.. The Father was a nice person.. Father Iggie.. Not sure how to spell his name but i know for sure his nickname is Friggie. He has a broad mouth and is a really jovial person.. His session was interesting and funny too.. I enjoyed it throughly.... Ok I shall not digress. The sharing session today was about each one of us's journey of faith into the catholic religion.. Well everyone of the sponsors and facilitators all had some story behind them and how they grew stronger in the faith. When it was my turn, I wasn't really sure about it.

Basically faith and religion had never really been strong in my family as my Dad was a catholic and my Mom was kinda more to the taoist/buddhist side.. My mom hated the catholic religion due to some bad experience with my dad's relatives.. Thus, I never really had any chance to learn about the catholic religion let alone become one. I can't call myself a taoist/buddhist either as my Mom at that time wasn't even a staunch one herself, not even close i might add. So here I was.. living my life these 17 years as a free thinker.. Not even a thought about religion. Yes, sure I know that God existed.. Afterall I was from a catholic school ( St Josephs Institution ) and there were prayers every morning and mass as well. But that was all there was to it. At most I would go to church with my dad on major occasions like Easter.. But any further than that was impossible. My mom wouldn't allow it, and of course being her son and she being the more dominant force in the family.. I had to oblige by her wishes lest jeopardizing my future if you know what i mean. So all these years I can say I never really had a faith at all and i don't think there was so much as a tiny flame burning inside me. At times sure I felt that I had a religion as going to church seemed fun to me and with friends and all. But then the reality hit me hard time and time again that it would be impossible as I came down to earth each time knowing my Mom would not allow it. Thus, I have learnt to live without a religion for 17 years.. until recently.

Just out of a sudden I'm thrown into it all again. My family has been in some crisis recently and my Mom, seemingly desperate has turned her attention to the Catholic faith in hope that some conversion may help us overcome this crisis. Thus recently she one day suggested going for RCIA and asked my dad to just sign the whole family up for it. I mean, sure my dad always says to have faith in god and everything will be alright.. But personally I think the way my Mom is doing it is not right at all. She doesn't do it willingly. If you set off with a closed mind from the start and being skeptical about everything, then you will never be able to see things in the light that other people do. So yes, that's just one aspect of it. The other aspect would be me. I should be like YES! This is what I wanted right? But somehow.. after several weeks.. I feel uneasy.. thus leading to this post. Everyone that attends the RCIA class has been called by God someway or another that's why we are all there. Sure, that might be true according to him, but I don't have the feeling inside me.. I don't feel that I have found the calling from God.. It is all just so abrupt.. I enjoy the lessons and everything.. But.. the close feeling to be with God and the love for him that everyone at the Church talks about.. I don't feel anything at all..

What should I do?.. Just wait? Or do i have to do something ... I have no idea.. Which is why I have started this blog.. My journey to find my faith.. Most of my more personal feelings will be revealed in this blog.. Well, I have to go to bed now. Have to wakeup early.. Hopefully my answer will come soon. God bless everyone and especially my family. Goodnight!